Look At All The Possibilities

Why out of the nowhere are you trying to sway me back to you with your words? You know I am so weak for you. You know I really really want to be with you. You know that I have wanted it for so long now. But I am not a fool. I’m not in such a state where I forget to consider everything that is happening. You’ve made me your second choice. It’s a fact. Now you can’t have your first choice because of whatever reason. Divisions i’m assuming. That’s a fact. Now you’re coming back to me, and trying to tell me that you want your forever with me.

I don’t know if I want to take that risk again….But can you blame me for feeling this way? I don’t think i’ve ever felt so crappy for so long. 

Give it a week to let all of this spill over. Somehow, I know that you’re going to go back to him. And you two will be all happy or whatever the hell you two are when you’re together.

I want to be with you…I just don’t want the chance of me being so severely hurt by you yet again.

iftheworldwouldchange:

[I know I’m not the best writer, all of this is “stream of consciousness” stuff… I’m sorry if it hurts. I just hope you understand what I’m saying in the end.]

I don’t think you understand that I chose you and he’s not doing anything to stop me. The only one fussing about this is you. He feels…

Babysitting you until I can come and take his place?

That’s your justification for it?

Michelle, that isn’t right at all. Regardless of whether or not you ‘depend’ on other people, you shouldn’t be doing those kinds of things with him if you’ve got your mind set on me. I’m sorry, but you still being like that with him doesn’t sound like you’ve been trying. 

I can give you my all. I’m not the one who is in love with another. I’m not the one who is embracing other girls, or telling them how I love and or miss them. You have all of my heart. You’re the one who still wants another man.

If I left, we both know you’d go to him. You did not deny that yesterday when we had talked. 

Whether him and I have different advantages or not, I can not condone you doing things like that with another person…not if you feel the way you say you do for me…

This distance is killing me, and the thought of you two is eating away at me.

I don’t care what he thinks of, or how he is. I’m not him. We are two completely different people, and he probably has other people in his heart as well.

You can not compare the both of us. It’d be a false analogy.

Michelle, you’re just to justify how you are with him, and it isn’t working for me. If we’re together, then it should be you and I. Not you, me, and him. 

(Source: thebrokenandfragile)